Still Not Our Time :(
We can honestly say that the second time around, that Nurse l33T Joy called us to tell us that our little dino eggs AGAIN did not like their nice warm home and that the tests came back negative….. was easier in way of disappointment.
Not that the anything with that phone call was easy. Derrian refused to even look at the phone all day, dreading the call from the Nurse. The news brought about rivulets of tears, swearing, and starring passed everything and at nothing at the same time.
IT SUCKED! It still sucks, and it will for a long time… Just like last time. But our hopes were not as high as last time, because we already knew what that devastation was. We were perhaps expecting it this time around. Which is DUMB, but it is the truth for all of you to know.
CKnight helped dye Derrian’s hair, something she couldn’t do during the treatments, and the time afterwards while we waited for the news. She has a little more gray up there then she would like even only being in her early 30’s. But that is just life. It was also something to take our minds off the bad news, and attempt to relax a little bit.
Then it was our normal ‘Dinner with the car people’ at the pizza joint. Extra’s came to give hugs, loves, and drink alcohol since that was something else Derrian was not able to do before.
It all helps… being around such GREAT friends helps… being able to talk out loud to anyone helps…
At the end of the night we snuggled in bed, watched American Dad and actually had a good night sleep (mostly).
We are already thinking about the future. We have our little baby dino-icicle waiting for us in the deep freeze, and we have NO idea how any of that works. But we’ll be meeting with Nurse l33T Joy next week to discuss.